There must be a God somewhere, let’s call it the “God of Joy”. I must owe that f*cker money in a previous life or something! After last weekend when everything was going against me and I just said “to hell with it” I started the project of upgrading my computer at home. And yesterday when everything (except the new harddrive) was in place I enjoyed the most incredible gaming computer I’ve ever had! For the first time I was able to run a really graphics heavy game totally maxed out without any problems. Me = happy! This mornig, I got up and was still happy. Got to work, still happy. And then the “God of Joy” said “that’s it!” and decided to ruin everything, and the mechanic called me and said “repairs on your car will cost about $250″… me = not happy! Why, why oh dear God of Joy won’t you let me be happy for one continuos day! Please!!!

Or another example – took the train this morning (since my car is in the shop) and saw a very, very pretty woman on the train (who I really hope isn’t reading this). Usually I would just think to myself “nice :)” and that’d be it. But oh no, I had to notice that she had something that appeared to be an Adam’s apple, and all of a sudden I remember this “women don’t have Adam’s apples”-comment from Friends. But this one did, noway she was now or have ever been a guy, way too pretty for that. But it still ruined the entire trip for me.


I’ve got a terrible confession to make. I actually like Jen Lopez’ “Jenny from the Block” ๐Ÿ™ It’s not the lyrics (I couldn’t care less about her trying to reconnect to where she grew up, and I’m surprised anyone else does!), and it’s sure as hell isn’t the video ( 1) She’s in it 2) Affleck is in it 3) I don’t pitty her one bit for having paparazzi’s everywhere she goes), but there’s just something there in the song that I like, and I don’t like liking a Jen Lopez song!!! Somebody please say there’s a hidden message in there that effects me on a subconscious level, that might explain it…


After a hellish week at work (including working until 10 pm on wednesday fixing a crashed server) I was pretty happy when the clock hit 5 on friday to finally kick back, relax and enjoy a weekend without concerning myself about anything. But as I drove home my car started making funny noises, so I guess I’ll have to take it to the shop for a $200 checkup plus fixing whatever is broken. And then it got even worse as my harddrive on my workstation quit on me – 50 gigs of data I’m never getting back, and I have to buy a new asap, that’s another $150 right there.

So what does a normal, sane person do when stuff go this bad and it feels like the entire world is against hime? I have no idea, but I know what I do – I turn it off, tune it out and just watch a couple of movies. Which is what I spent saturday doing. One of those movies was “Shawshank Redemption”. I don’t think I can emphasize enough how incredible that movie is! It’s just awesome! And especially when I was feeling like things were really not going my way, then seeing this movie which is basically about just how much a human being can handle and how incredible life and hope is, that felt like exactly the right medicine at the time!

Thank you Mr. Darabont!


I accidentally saw an interview with the t.A.T.u chicks on MTV and got they came up with a pretty good quote – “we’re not lesbians, we’re just in love with each other”. I liked that quote. Actually I like people who refuse to be labelled, and that quote pretty much summons that up!


Let’s combine two subjects I’ve already covered – prejudice and peoples likes/dislikes. Is it ok to like some artist or something because that person is say… TOTALLY HOT? Not without being very shallow! Well what if that person is very talented, still ok? But the real question is – can other people accept that you may like that person because of his/hers talent, not only because of ‘that other thing’?
Let’s take the example that prompted this question – t.A.T.u! When I was listening (yes, I listen to the TV which means the TV is on but I’m sitting in front of my computer!) to the pre-show to the MTV EMA’s last thursday I heard this song that I like, “All The Things She Said“. Pretty good song, very catchy. But I had no idea who did the song. So I turned around to see who it was. Turns out the “group” is called t.A.T.u. They are two teen chicks from Russia (one of which is totally hot). Then they start making out on the stage! Nothing much, hugs & kisses but still surprising. Although I should be if I’d pay attention to lyrics like “They say it’s my fault but I want her so much”… Then my friend Dazza says that’s one of the things they are famous for. So the question I asked myself after that experience is – will people judge me as “superficial, typical guy who likes seeing two chicks go at it” simply because I like their music?

It’s the same with Jeri Ryan (7 of 9 in Star Trek Voyager). I’ve always liked her, and not only because she’s like the apex of sexiness, but because she’s actually a good actress. But everytime I mention that I like her in any forum what so ever, people judge me because I can’t possibly like her for her acting skills, can I?

What doesn’t make this any better is the fact that I do it! A friend of mine likes Pamela Andersson, and I immediately threw that out the window as “shallow guy who likes big breast”. Although in that specific case I might have been right, but it doesn’t make me any better than anyone else ๐Ÿ™


Everyone who knows me will tell you that I’m pretty childish and immature, and I’m fine with that. But yesterday I felt old and obsolete! I was talking to Dazza (of NP.com) on ICQ and he was telling me about the EMA’s going down on MTV. I had no idea that was on, completely out of the loop. But I switched over to enjoy the show. And as I was talking with my friend on ICQ I found myself dissing almost everyone and all the modern pop music! Totally dissing it! Either that’s because I’m too old, or the music has gotten worse! The only thing thing that saved it was Rรถyksopp’s opening act and Moby’s closing act, everything inbetween there was more or less dissed by me! And there was only one category in which I DIDN’T diss all the nominees – “best new act”, so maybe there is hope for me or the music industry yet!

And Moby finally got recognition for his website! It’s been way overdue!

But one thing I’m pretty sure of – MTV has really lacked off over the years! They used to be cutting edge, no holds barred unrestrained music and entertainment! Today Pink can’t say “bitch” in her lyrics, half of eminem’s song has some mute built into them and that naked chick yesterday (I’m pretty sure that was pre-arranged!) will have some parts blurred out in the re-runs!


Just how geeky am I? One example – I laughed my ass of today at the following joke:
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Don’t worry, if you didn’t get it, you’re normal.


One thing about LAN parties everyone should know is what a beating your body takes! The food is terrible – pizza, cola, chips and snacks. And you suffer from sleep deprivation. Then your mind is focused 95% of the time when your playing some LAN game. And then ofcourse all the carrying around with your computer equipment. But believe you me – it was so great to get home and slip down in my bed and sleep for a good 10 hours, then it was up and go to work again ๐Ÿ™

But I had a helluva time!


This weekend I’m gonna do something I haven’t done in a long time – attend a LAN party. Here’s a short description – a bunch of gamers pack their computers and head off to one building, hook everything up and just play games against/with each other for a few days, and there’s usually a tournament. Now I know what you’re thinking – “oh my good how anti-social, pathetic and geeky”. You’re wrong! It’s not anti-social – there’s plenty of human interaction, and you can actually go around blowing up your best friend or anyone else you want to and laugh it off. You get to meet the people you’ve been playing against/with, swap war-stories. Pathetic? What’s pathetic about a bunch of people getting together at one place to train and tune their skills? It’s the same as a friendly game of soccer! Geeky? Just because it’s with computers, isn’t it? Do you know how much a computer, with monitor, weighs!? Carrying all that around builds muscles, and we’re not geeky anymore!… ok, that was a longshot, but I really don’t like how people think “dude, that’s pathetic” when I describe what I’m gonna spend my weekend doing. Or perhaps this is just more of my late teenage rebellion against my mother always saying “why don’t you go outside and play”? (I never said my parents were perfect!)


What a wacky weekend that was! Saturday was a national holiday here in sweden, so we only worked half a day on friday. And I’m not sure I can call that working because I didn’t do that very much there. Then I went “home” (to my parent’s place that is) for the annual halloween party that my sister arranges every year for the kids and guess what, didn’t do anything then either. I actually think friday was the laziest day all year for me. On saturday I actually worked, but to compensate for that I went to good old friend Markus’ to celebrate his 30th. Damn good party, but I had to leave early though, ’cause I have to study for another certification this afternoon. Throw in the arrival of Star Wars Episode II DVD and you’ve got a hectic weekend right there.

But one thing is certain – I have the best parents in the world! I’m pretty sure everyone (ok, most people) think they have the best, but I know I do. I could write pages and pages about how great my mother and my father, but I’m afraid I’d forget something and they’d make sure I never forget it, so I’m not gonna write a list, I’m just gonna say that I really do have the best parents in the world ๐Ÿ™‚
Every time I get into a discussion about violence in movies, in computer games and bad things about the internet I use myself as an argument that most of that is bullshit, because if there was some truth to it I should be a mass murdering, bomb-making anarchistic pedophile. But I’m not, and the reason is that my parents did such a great job with me that I’m not screwed up in any of those ways, they made sure I knew the difference between violence in the movies and in real life and they made sure I got that little switch in my head that says “no, this is wrong”.

So mom, dad – thank you and I love you ๐Ÿ™‚


Some people have asked me how I can be this open and expose myself and the weird thoughts that are going through what little excuse I have for a brain. I don’t think I’ve got a good answer for that yet. But this morning, as I was slouch-surfing around the web I ended up on a webpage that made this place look like the Vatican – AsiaCarrera.com! Yes, that tri-lingual piano-playing, HTML-typing woman with a registered IQ of 156 that have done some adult movies. I wasn’t sure what I was gonna find on her very own site, but I wasn’t expecting to end up laughing my shoes off as I read the F.A.Q! If you’re not afraid of a little porno-talk and love humor then please, head over there and take a look!

It was also a bit self-enlightning when it comes to prejudice and being judgemental…