Censorship

Yesterday I did a pretty good post here. Atleast for me. But… well, it’s all about respecting the fact that it’s not really only about me. I have no problem exposing myself and give details to my friends and family and everyone else who finds their way here. But that’s me. I’m different. Not everyone is like that. So it’s all about respecting that. Sorry 🙂

I Love Her!!

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This Is Too Good …

Warning : Gonna be deep now!

Do you remember a movie called “American Beauty”? I loved it when I saw it but there was one part of it I didn’t get. The weird kid Ricky who filmed the bags. After this weekend I totally get that character. And here’s why!

On our second date we were gonna see a movie (her choice… Jumper!) and she was gonna fix dinner at her place before the movie. I get there and she’s the nice hostess and everything but I’m picking up signals saying “I so regret inviting you but I’m too nice to call it off and hoping you’re gonna get the hint soon!” but I’ve been wrong before so I’m going with it. Awesome dinner by the way! We go to the movie and after the movie it was so different signals and we walked and talked and ended up at Regeringshuset and at the water there we kinda got to it, physically. Then slow walk back to her car, talking and we agreed to go back to our respective beds and sleep on it. As if that was gonna happen, I couldn’t sleep at all. So at 2 am I checked my mail and there was .. probably the most amazing e-mail anyone have ever written to me. It was so good it hurt a bit. I had to get up and walk it off cause it hit me right in the gut. After getting the nerve to even try to reply to that we agreed she’d come over to my place on sunday for an inspection. Fortunately it was decently clean and I passed that inspection and after talking a bit, playing a bit PS3 we tried seeing a movie. We failed. And as I was lying there with this awesome woman, kissing her, holding her and looked into her eyes that’s when it hit me… the quote from Ricky in American Beauty.. “Sometimes there’s so much beauty in the world I feel like I can’t take it, like my heart’s going to cave in.” That’s pretty much how I felt at the time. Then we had to go back to her place to take care of her cats but it really didn’t matter where we were, as long as it was us two.

And breaking the speed record here.. I already have a toothbrush at her place now!

Weird Is Good

I guess I have to tell you how monday night went since so many people are wondering! But I’ll have to be nice since she, her family and her friends are watching me 🙂 And you know what? I’m totally fine with that cause I got those butterflies flying around… kinda makes me feel like a teenager again (good? bad? who knows!). We had set a time and place and I thought we’d sit down for a nice talk over warm coffee, but she wanted to go out walking. So we went out walking… and alot of it! Eventually wound up at my favorite cafe around the corner from where I work, then went out and walked some more. And ofcourse during all that walking we did alot of talking and giggling at stuff and people and… we just had a great time! That is until the train station when we were gonna say goodbye and I was faced with the always annoying question… do I hug her or go for the kiss? That’s usually a millisecond judgement call based on the moment. I’m not gonna tell you what I did, since it was the wrong choice. I don’t know why I always get it wrong, am I _that_ bad at reading women that I always end up hugging the ones that wants a kiss and kiss the ones that wanna settle for a hug? And why is it always up to the guys to decide that when we are always ready to go for the kiss?! Anyways, damage was mitigated (now there’s a word I never expected to use in a sentence) the day after when I sent her flowers with the note “Thank you for yesterday”. I thought that was a great idea, “never fails”. Except ofcourse if the woman in question is working with middleaged industrial workers who immediately assumed she had put out on the first date. That was funny as hell and she’s the cool chick that laughs that off!

So we’re seeing each other this Saturday again, dinner and a movie. Haven’t been on a movie-date since the first “Lord of the Rings” and the long time readers of this page will know how much I actually saw of that movie.

Things are going great, and they’re only getting better!

So how are things on your end? Personally I haven’t felt this good (mentally or physically) for a long long time! Except for my ear still ringing a bit I really have no problems at all! As a matter of fact… I got this weird mail from this woman on an internet site on tuesday and by the third mail we were getting very personal and now I just got off the phone with her after talking for about 90 minutes! Now everyone who knows me and knows what I’m like on the phone (short and to the point) gotta be amazed how I can keep a 90 minute conversation, but it wasn’t a problem. This is good! And we’re going out on monday 😉